The facts were these...
I had no prior history of high blood pressure; my blood pressure was
usually in the low 100’s/60’s.
I had been experiencing swelling in my feet since mid-late October.
I woke up with swelling in my face and hands Oct 26th that lasted a
couple hours and had swelling in my eyelids on several mornings after that. I
talked to the doctor about it at my next appointment on November 7th,
he didn’t seem too concerned.
When I was 30 weeks along the doctor decided to schedule
non-stress tests twice a week to monitor Emma because she was measuring small. No
real concern, just to keep an eye on her progress.
Which brings us to...
31 weeks 3 days – Tuesday November 11th
This morning I went to the first non-stress test for
Emma. It was an ultrasound followed by a movement tracker in which our very active baby slept
through the first half and didn’t move at all. Cheeky! During the ultrasound they
measured her all over, found she was still measuring small but that she had
great movement, her diaphragm moved – a sign her body was practicing the
movement she’d later use for breathing – and my blood pressure was high again.
It had been high at my last appointment as well, the previous Friday the 7th.
The nurse practitioner I met with gave me a couple pieces of advice that morning that
probably saved my life that night. She said that if my swelling traveled up my
legs I needed to go to the hospital, that I could always go to a CVS and check
my blood pressure, and that my usual doctor would probably prescribe me some
medication at my next non-stress appointment (Fri. the 14th) to keep my blood
pressure down.
I felt pretty normal
that day. Tired, and my feet were swelling by the time I got home. I propped my
legs up on the couch for a few hours until Tommy got home. When I got up I
realized my legs were massively swollen all the way up through my thighs.
Usually when I’d been putting my feet up for 2-3 hours the swelling would be
gone for at least a good 20 minutes of standing :) Thigh swelling was not normal.
Thanks to the step by step direction the nurse practitioner had given me that morning, I
felt pretty calm and knew exactly what to do. Tommy wasn’t feeling well but we
went to CVS, checked my blood pressure 160/88 – much too high for my comfort.
We called the on-call nurse operator, explained the swelling and blood pressure
reading and asked at what point do we need to go to the hospital, and waited
for the return call. Meanwhile we asked our friends to come over so Tommy and
Travis could administer a
blessing on me. A doctor called back soon after and
said I needed to go to the hospital immediately to get checked out, that with
my current symptoms/BP I was at risk of having a stroke. Travis and Tommy gave
me a blessing, and Tommy and I speedily grabbed what we thought we’d need for a few
hours at the hospital. Meanwhile Tommy was "experiencing" food poisoning. Perfect
timing!!
We got to the ER, Tommy immediately headed off to utilized
the ER restroom and I recall reassuring the ER front desk people that while I was
pregnant, I wasn’t there to have a baby (ha!) I just had high blood pressure and
needed to be checked out. (I was expecting to be prescribed some blood pressure
medication and to be sent home!) They said I had to go up to Labor and Delivery
for some tests and I walked there, turning down the offered wheelchair. I note this to emphasize the fact that even at this point, I still thought I was doing okay!
Tommy caught up to me in Labor and Delivery and a
nurse started taking my vitals. She said CVS machines aren’t always reliable, so
hopefully my BP wasn’t as high as it had read out; I agreed. Then she took my
BP and it was significantly higher
than it had been at CVS 184/112. Instantly our room was a flurry of nurses and I was officially admitted to the hospital and
diagnosed with preeclampsia!
It was explained that I would need to be there for two days of
meds.
Goal #1: To not go into labor during that time = bed rest. High
blood pressure can induce labor!
I would get medication to get my blood
pressure down as well as steroids for the baby so that her lungs could get a
boost developing. In case we weren’t able to stop my body from going into
labor, we wanted to give her her best shot having lungs as developed as
possible.
If we made it through the next two days,
Goal #2: To make it to 32
weeks (Nov. 15th)
Goal #3: To put off labor for
as many days/weeks as possible.
I received the first steroids at midnight that
night, the next would be given 24 hours later. They did an ultrasound on the
baby and checked for everything that had been checked for at my non-stress
appointment earlier that day! The only difference was this ultrasound
technician said I was hardly measuring small at all. They hooked me and the
baby up to keep track of our heart rates and I was told I was having
contractions about 5 mins apart and was dilated 3cm. The contractions weren’t
bad, my pain level stayed at a 1 or 2, only getting up to a 3 at one point. (I
assigned myself these pain levels…there was no emoticon chart like in “What to
Expect When You’re Expecting”! So I based it on the idea that a 10 would be me screaming
bloody murder). I did not get much sleep at all that night. Nurses came in and
out all night to check my vitals, to take my blood for more tests, and to read/assess
the trackers on the baby and I. Tommy "slept" on a loveseat pull out couch...that he chose not to pull out :) Yes, it was funny.
Intermission video of me squawking under my O2 mask. Enjoy.
31 weeks 4 days - Wednesday November 12th
I got a catheter – not awesome – they tracked my output and
found it much too low for all the fluids being pumped into me through the IV. (A
sign my kidneys weren’t working right.) I was given Magnesium Sulfate to get my
blood pressure down and the side effects weren’t lovely. It made me very tired,
achy, with cold & hot flashes. I had inconsistent contractions all day, some I
didn’t feel at all, some were up to a 3. They didn’t really hurt, they were
uncomfortable, and I tried my best to breathe through them and not fight them.
I wished Tommy and I had taken a birthing class!
I got the second shot of steroids at noon Wednesday. Tommy
and I cancelled all our plans for the day and weekend and we spent the day
waiting to hear the doctors verdict. We were getting the feeling that I would
be here longer than two days...and he finally asked straight out if I was going
to be able to go home not having had a baby or if I was going to be here until
the baby came. The nurse said I wasn’t going home without having a baby first.
So we got that cleared up but we had no idea how long that would be. We didn’t
know how long they could stall labor and keep me stable. Days? Weeks? We
thought the hardest part would be the 2 days of steroids that we were trying to
get through but since they gave me the second shot early I thought that was a
good sign. Our friends came to visit and Tommy and Travis administered another blessing. I cannot even begin to express how much these blessings from our loving Heavenly Father brought us such peace and comfort over these days. We were markedly calm and assured knowing everything would be okay and that God had wonderful plans for our family.
It wasn’t long afterwards a Specialist came in
and said she advised that we induce labor. I expressed my desires not
to induce labor and asked her why she suggested we do that. I don’t remember all that she said but
basically my kidneys were failing. And my blood pressure was still high (150's/80-90's). All of
the liquids they were pumping into me were staying in my body, I had barely any output. She said the baby and I would only have our best chance if we separated
as soon as possible. So we prayed about it. Felt like it was the right thing to
do and consented. The Pitocin was put in my IV and we waited. I didn’t feel any
differently and more time went by. Later our nurse came in and said she had
stopped the Pitocin almost immediately after starting it because our baby
hadn’t reacted well to it. (Her heart rate had dropped.)
That night around maybe
6 or 7pm my OB finally came in. This was the first time I’d seen him since the
previous Friday. He said we needed to schedule a C section for that night so
that we wouldn’t have to do an emergency C section in the middle of the night. His reasons
weren’t small potatoes. With my blood pressure so high I could have a stroke or
seizures at any moment. But I really, really didn’t want to do a c section. And I was
exhausted. Tommy and I both didn’t feel comfortable rushing into a C section,
it decides a lot about future deliveries and it is a major surgery that both
the baby and I weren’t prepared for. We’d been getting nasty medicines pumped
into us all day. We asked the Doctors to step out and prayed again. I felt
assured that I would make it through the night, that my body wouldn’t suffer a
stroke or seizures. We decided to spend the night trying to rest up, to try to
induce labor again in the early morning and if that didn’t work, then we would
schedule a C section right after. My OB was not very happy with this decision
but he couldn’t do much other than say why it was dangerous to put off. We
understood and felt at peace with our decision.
At 10pm that night our nurse came in and said our baby’s
heart rate had dipped with each of my last three natural contractions. Upon hearing this development our OB said if I
didn’t consent to a C section right now he would
give us to another Doctor. We consented. He told the nurse to prep me for surgery
and that he would be there in 30 minutes. After hanging up I talked to Tommy
and we both voiced the feeling that the
spirit was giving us: that this would
be okay. It wasn’t the birth we had hoped for, but we felt like it would be okay. So
we continued on with the preparations. Tommy suited up! I got a gown/sheet
thing and a hair cap that no one bothered to actually put on my head right!
They explained what would happen. I would be numbed so I wouldn’t feel any pain
but I would be awake and Tommy would be with me. When the baby was out she
would be given to a team of NICU doctors and her situation would be
ascertained. If she was stable enough, they’d let me hold her, if not they’d
take her directly to the NICU and Tommy would be able to go with her.
My bed turned into a gurney and they wheeled me to the O.R.! The anesthesiologist talked me
through what everything he was doing which I really appreciated, it kept me calm. They sat me up on a very narrow table, had me curve
my spine and lean forward as far as possible (difficult to do as a pregnant
woman). A nurse held me so I didn’t fall forward, which I was grateful for!
Then he felt my vertebrae and found the right spot to numb me. This was
disturbing to me…that he had to find the right spot. That he didn’t just know
where it was. But in hindsight I was really swollen everywhere at this
point. My bones weren't really visible. [I wish I would have thought to request that I be weighed sometime during this day. My entire body was full of the liquids my kidneys couldn't process, my skin stretched past far beyond what I'd ever believed possible. I was huge. HUGE.]
He numbed the area with the first shot and then put in a
spinal block so that I would feel no pain from that point downwards. He laid me
back down and my arms were strapped straight out on boards that popped up from
the table. I felt like I would very
easily fall off the very narrow table as my girth was massive and seemed extra-large
and heavy with the numbness. He tested the numbness with a pin, slowly poking
me down my body. It was so strange to feel the sharp pain of the pricks as he
moved down with the pin and then absolutely nothing. If he pushed on me below
the block I could feel the pressure clearly…but I could not feel pain. The room had many people in it all prepping and getting ready
for their part. They put up a large blue curtain going straight up from my
chest and finally I heard Tommy’s voice asking if he could come in and saying
he was looking for me. I was so relieved! My Tommy.
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| I closed my eyes because I was about to hurl... |
The staff directed him to me, brought him a chair so he
could sit right by my head and hold my hand. A nurse very sternly told him he
was not to look around or over the curtain. It is very disturbing to only be
able to look up. But having Tommy there, it felt like we were going to
experience this craziness together. Like we were visitors in that room, there
to watch. There was no sense of time in me anymore, but I’m told it is a quick
surgery; 20-30 minutes. The Doctors didn’t speak to me, everyone seemed to work
around us. The anesthesiologist is the only one who talked to me, talked me
through what he was doing and what was going on. The rest of the Doctors spoke to
each other. They talked about coworkers and made small talk asking about the
others lives. It was bizarre. The surgery was violent…I was pulled and tugged
right and left. I told Tommy it felt like there was an earthquake happening...just to the lower half of my body. I tried to imagine what they could possibly
be doing to explain the motion but I had no idea. At one point they said to
each other that I had a ton of fluid in my stomach. Tommy and I just waited.
Waited to hear a baby cry.
At one point I heard someone say
“Congratulations”, almost in passing, not any louder than
the rest of their conversation. I wondered or asked “Does that mean we have a
baby??” I can’t remember which. But I definitely know I called out “Is she
okay?” No one responded. But moments later Tommy said he thought she was out
and over on a table to my left surrounded by NICU doctors. We still had not
heard a cry. Tommy was called over and I think he is the first one who said to
me that she was okay. Apparently her lungs weren't developed enough to cry! But she was out!
Tommy got to cut her umbilical cord and took pictures for me! I could not see her myself even though
the table was close because she was completely surrounded by Doctors and
nurses. Minutes later they started wheeling her out and Tommy asked me if he
should go with them or stay with me, we’d already talked it through and I told
him to go with her. A nurse paused the group moving out with our girl, called
out to me to look, and then briefly held her up. I saw her face and one name
flashed into my mind “Clara”. And they were gone.
And that's how our baby girl was born!
I.E. extracted.
I.E. abducted from my uterus.
The blessings that came from the many prayers born on our behalf during these crucial hospital days and during Emma's time in the NICU were obvious and palpable. Thank you! We love, love, love our little miracle baby!
11:11pm ~ 11/12/14 ~ 2 lbs 14oz. ~ 16 inches long
Emma Alexis Steinkuhler
Has her daddy's hands, feet and nose.
Has her mama's eyes and chin.
And a spunk and fight all her own :)
